Thursday, December 29, 2011

Eat food.

The infuriating and sad news strikes me a hard blow and drains all the happiness in me. I guess this must how Harry felt when Dementors came for him.

Just half an hour ago I was having fun with Pja, Abang and Pizan at the cinema and chicken chop, and 10 minutes ago I was happier than I've ever been in awhile, but as soon as I turned on my laptop and saw the news, it hit me hard in the guts.

How could they be so cruel to those beautiful people whom I love dearly? How could they?

It breaks my heart to see them apologize for some other eat food's mistakes. They didn't do anything wrong, they've worked really hard, probably too hard, how could you treat them like eat food?

Eat food.

Sunday, December 18, 2011

Oppa, oppa!

The greatest thing about my homies is that no matter how weirder I get everyday, they would make fun of the change, but they actually won't mind and still treat me the same way they did before the change.

Do I have awesome homies or what?

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Secara tiba2 rasa nak preach.

Howdy folks.

The one thing I've learned is that don't question God's decisions, and you have to have faith in his wisdom. Though not every single one of you prayers will be granted, He definitely hears your prayers, so keep on praying, He'll make it happen someday. Just be happy with what you have. Stop whining. Remember that there are other people who are facing far greater difficulties than yours.

ps: Ditujukan kepada Fatin Atiqah especially kerana nampaknya kau kurang happy lately. Cheer up, homes. No matter what I love ya!


Sunday, November 27, 2011

I'm in love.

Howdy folks!
I really love them, I really do. And I wish to stay this way forever. I do :')

Afeef Firdaus dan Azad Harith, Mak Su sayang gile lah kat korang hahaha. Sampai luka2 bibir sebab geram punye pasal. Eeeee geram~ xD

I'm feeling so free right now. I'm done with my diploma. I don't think I'll be able to score a silver award this semester because everything was so messed up. I don't think I put enough efforts into my studies. I was pretty distracted. Every second my mind was (and still is) constantly thinking of this 3rd December 2011.

I almost gave up on my Financial Accounting 5 paper, literally. The night before the exam, I decided I was going to reseat the paper, and I wanted to go home early. But then I thought that'd be foolish and I'm gonna regret it later. 10 hours before the paper started, I called my lecturer asking for advice, he said he believed in me. So thanks to Sir Zaki and of course Pja who nagged me for a good half an hour, I gave it a try. Studied everything from scratch, and I think I did good, but not enough to get an A or even B+. Sighhh. I guess I can kiss my dream of studying abroad goodbye.

Happy holiday everyone. I'll post again soon.


Monday, November 7, 2011


Howdy folks.

I'm leaving all the fun aside for a month for final examinations. Why do I have to worry about finals when most of my homies are on break T_T nanti aku cuti diorang pulak busy =.='' haihhhh sadis. Have a good day everyone. Enjoy yourself, break a leg, but not literally like Aten. Mu ni tak sampai berape bulan dah eksiden kecilan. Buat risau orang je -.-'' take care of yourself kiddo.

Dah Has pegi kemas barang. Cheerio.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

You're a classic.

Howdy folks.

Today marks the day that I lost my faith towards destiny. Just as my beloved Kyuhyun said, there is no such thing as destiny.

At first, I was glad that you walked into my life, but now I've realized that all you ever did was turn my world upside down. These past few weeks have been somewhat disastrous for me, with nothing seems to go my way and the fact that I can never get my mind straight, all the while only you inside my head, burning down the whole city. But now I've finally seen the light.

Heart, I'm sorry it took me so long to show you the light.

Be careful of the people you let in to your life. Some are just in to mess you up.


Tuesday, June 28, 2011


Friends I can count on, where are you when I needed you the most?


Howdy folks.

I am here to wish another awesome person who's also born in June. Well ya gotta admit, people born in June are pretty awesome.

Saengil chukha hamnida~ Saengil chukha hamnida~ Saranghaneun uri chinguya~ Saengil chukha hamnida~

First of all, you're hugely responsible of turning me into who I am today. You have changed an enormous part of me, made me do things I never imagined I would do -.-'' Yea you know what I mean!

But all in all, it's not bad at all, in fact it cheers me every single day, I've become more positive and hyperactive, and possibly girly haha but in a good way. Ever since then, there's never been a day where I am not fully content with life. I might feel down sometimes, but at the end of the day, I'll feel much happier hahaha tau2 laa kenapa kan. So I am eternally grateful to you! xD

Thanks kawan dengan aku sejak sekolah rendah lagi. We've been friends for more than 12 years fuiyooooo! Daebak! Thanks selalu ajak aku pegi main bowling walaupun makin lama aku makin bodo2 je hahaha. Thanks sebab ajak aku pegi super show 3, it was one of the greatest days of my life. Maybe not no 1, but definitely top 3 hahaha. Thanks sebab jadikan aku ELF. Thanks sebab kau selalu dengar masalah aku (kalo ade laa). Thanks sebab aku tau walaupun kadang2 bende aku cakap macam bodo2 dan membosankan tapi kau ketawa gak, layan kepala aku ahahaha. Lagi apa eh. Thanks for everything laa senang citer. Komawo, chinguya!! ^^

Hope your wishes come true k. Join aku, make a wish for SuJu to come to msia again ASAP! 5jib on the way, nanti kita pegi super show 4 sama2 lagi tau. Kali ni kalo cukup bajet kita pegi yg kat singapore or thailand skali k! hahaha. Kumpul duit, nanti kita pegi vaca kat korea skali! (angan2 tinggi tak sudah)

Akhir kata, majulah Tenot untuk negara. Saengil chukhae, chinguya. Fighting!! ^^


Sunday, May 8, 2011

The threads of destiny that tie us to each other.

Howdy folks.

As weird as it seems, I never knew why people revise for exams. Usually I just sit back and relax til the last 2 hours before the exam starts, and then realize I don't know a single thing, and start to panic because I don't know what the hell am I going to answer. I'll walk out of the hall feeling like a loser, cursing myself for not taking it seriously. But for the first time in my life, I studied my ass off for Commercial Law, and for the first time ever, I've experienced how it feels like to walk out of the examination hall boosting with confidence that you'll score an A for the subject hahaha. Err well, hope so -_-

Happy Mother's Day to all the amazing moms out there. You moms rock!

Can't wait to come home to meet ma homies yo. Rindu korang weohuhuhu

All of you, my family, my homies and my brothers. You are all the ones that grow on me every single day, and the growth just won't stop. I smile and laugh because of you, I live for all of you. So you gotta live your life happily, just like I live my life happily, eh ^^


Wednesday, April 6, 2011

I feel like shitting in someone's face.

Howdy folks. I'm so screwed up right now, I don't even know why. I think I need help. Or my homies. Cheerio.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

You are the Key.

Do you always have to take care of people? At first you only nagged to the young ones (whom you know), and then you started to nag everyone you know. But now, you nag at whoever you see. Even on the street. Ahjumma, ahjumma.


Saturday, February 19, 2011

Lose it, lose it.

Howdy folks.

So how did I lose 4kg in a week? Here's my daily routine and diet. Everyday I'll dance from 3.30pm to 5pm, then play badminton from 5.30pm - 6.50pm and during the night from 9pm - 11.30pm. Every single day. And no I don't starve myself -_-I eat regularly, only in small portion of rice and vege. There ya go.

Healthy kan Yan? Bahahahaha.


Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Blah blah blah. Yapping again.

Howdy folks.

Many (sbenarnye sorang je) have been asking me to update my blog. Yeah it does seem pretty dusty. I really don't have anything to say these days. My homies had already updated about our fun outings even before I could type "Howd....". Don't you folks have anything else to update on? Let me do the easy ones!

So I uhh nothing fun has happened to me in awhile. I'm having fever, my throat hurts, I can't breathe through my nose and I've been coughing nonstop for days now. Ah. I hate fever.

Starting from here, there are alot of times when I'll forget the correct word, or what I'm about to say. Pardon my amnesia. It's (partly) because of the drugs.

I'm gonna talk about Pja's recent post about losing her....?? whatever. What she's been going through lately, or uhh how do I put this. Her life as a student now, is actually very similar to mine. I just realized now that I hadn't been learning anything since this semester started! Everyday, I go to class with my ears plugged. I pretend to listen to what the lecturers are saying, but really, I'm actually listening to music. Ah. -_-'' I should change this stupid habit, before it turns me stupid like Pja said. But the problem is, if I don't listen to music, I'll doze off. Regardless of how many hours of sleep I had the night before. Macam mana? T_T

Anyway, another thing is that, err, my lecturers seem to be developing a habit of nominating me for every position available. -_-'' first, I was selected as one of the naqibah. I don't know what makes them think I'm capable of becoming one swttt. But I couldn't really say no to it, not when it involves my religion. I accepted the job, although I'm not sure if I could guide my juniors well. Haizz.

And then I was enlisted as one of the MPP candidates. I didn't even know my name was on the list. I thought you had to apply to be a candidate, but apparently not. BUT! Lucky I found out about it in time. I backed out just in time the night before the manifesto started. Told them I couldn't take such heavy responsibility (malas ckp je malas). They were very insisting, though. Took me half an hour to convince them. But seriously, aku takde lah baik mana kat kolej tu. Why in the world...? -_- haizzz. In the end, I ended up becoming one of the PRS T____T I don't want anymore positions. I'm happy with just being the secretary of AFPAC! Please T____T

I'm not exactly a fan of korean dramas, but I can tolerate with the variety shows. They're hilarious. I'll be going to Super Junior's Super Show 3 in Malaysia on the 19th of March. Let's just hope I'll get the ticket.

Oh, a bit late for me to be talking about this, but yeah CHELSEA LOST TO LIVERPOOL bahahahahahaha. AGAINNN!!! Bahhahaahahha. We didn't need Torres to win. Heck, we didn't even need a 2nd goalkeeper (Suarez) to win! We rock.

And the red devils lost to the wolves. The first of the season. Thank you Wolves for proving that the Red Devils are not unbeatable after all. Cheers.

Aite, off to bed. Cheerio!

Monday, January 3, 2011

I should clear this up.

Howdy folks.

Many have asked who's my boyfriend. Many have not believed that I've never been in a relationship, ever.

They've always asked what do I look for in men. All the obvious attributes; funny, smart, good-looking blablabla. They wonder why no one is ever good enough. Look, this is the person I'm going to give my heart, my soul and my everything to. Is decent too much to ask?

People have their differences. Some can love easily. I can't. I'm not the kind who shares my love with anyone I meet in life. I admit. I can get along with most people just fine. I'm good at interacting. I have many friends. But do I love every single one of em? No. I like them, we hang, but I don't open myself up to them. And how many people do I trust in life? Aside from my family, I can count them with my fingers. There's a major difference with being good and being close with each other. I have issues, I know. But it wouldn't be special if you can just throw your love to anyone that comes close, eh?

These days, people throw around the word 'i love you' like it's something common. How can you love someone you barely know? It's just impossible. At least to me.

Hypothetically speaking about the man I'm going to be in a relationship with (or married to, for that matter)

When I love someone, I care about him. It's not all about saying 'i love you' or being romantic about it. I might not say the three words often, but I think, by the way I treat him, he knows how much I love him. Love is to give someone the power to hurt you, but trusting them not to.

When I love someone, I care about him. I miss him when he's not around. I can imagine us being together 20 years from now. I know for certain that we're gonna grow old together. Loving doesn't mean texting and calling each other all the time, but it's enough that he's on my mind all the time. I can't specifically say what I'd do for him, or how I'm going to treat him, but one thing for sure, I'm going to love him wholly.

Some say, "why so serious?". Ain't it obvious? Relationship is something I take seriously. If you're going to come and go, why should I be with you, even for a short time? Life's too short to be wasted like that. I have other things in life I have to deal with.

I'm not going to be in a relationship that I know for sure won't last. My first should be my last, no one else should be in the picture. I want to make sure that he's the only one who has ever hold my hands, the only one who has owned the throne. All to himself.

I'm sorry if it takes forever to win my heart. If you can't convince me that you're gonna be here til the end, then find someone else. I'm not the only flower in town.

I'm no queen. I'm nothing special. But this is my life. I decide what I want in life. Some say, "bajet hot je, nak kena kejar macam dia tu ratu dunia" HAHAHA. No, I'm definitely not. I'm way too cool to be Miss World. Like I said, if you don't want to participate in the chase, you can always leave. You'll be doing me a favor, anyway.

I'm not setting a high price. Honestly? He just needs to prove me that he's ready to love only me. Because that's how I roll. Only him. No one else.

Not too much to ask, eh? :)

Will I find my love this year? I don't know. Maybe. Maybe not.
Have I ever been truly in love? No.
Am I in love now? Like I said, no.

There's someone on my mind. There's someone I'm interested in. I like him. But no I don't love him. And I know perfectly well this'll go away.

Ah I've wasted so much time on this. Cheerio!